Honestly I take most of what I have for grated and never fully appreciate what I have and the people around me. Always thinking that I am better than other people at this and that. I always overestimate myself in my abilities. Funnily enough I am a shy person when it comes to being social. But when I am at home, I am too confident and honestly, really selfish.
I take my mum for granted, expecting her to take full responsibility of me and that she will be there when I need her. Yes, most of the time she will be here for me, but what if she isn't? Then what do I do? Recently I have realized that I have trouble doing to most simplest tasks, not physically, but the uncertainly of actually doing it. With my mum helping me along side I accomplish most of these tasks, but when she was out, I began to struggle again. I really need to learn and appreciate the things that are doin for me and one day help others like have they helped me.
I am currently in year 12 in Australia, and I hangout around the less popular guys, but enjoy everyday around them. From time to time I would get jealous of the more popular kids attending parties and being able to hang out on the weekends. But in the end, it really comes to who you are and what God has planned for you to do. I am so thankful for The Lord that he has granted me with new friendships with, Karina, Rachel.H, Suji, Katie and Rachel.Y. And he helped keep and endure my older friendships, especially with my best friend Nelson. Yeah we have small arguments here and there and we try to out shine each other but in the end we both enjoy our friendship and hope to treasure every moment of it.
Preparing for the final exam, the HSC , which is held near the end of this year, I have tutoring 3 times a week for most of my subjects. The most painful day being Sunday, from 9 am to 7 pm. With this negative thought I endured the first 5 weeks, but thinking about the sixth lesson which is on tomorrow, I actually am looking forward to. One being coming to my senses after writing this sentimental piece. The second being lucky enough to be in a semi wealthy family that can afford for me to go to tutoring. The last being a new friend that I have made from the first week of tutoring this year, Annie. We are going out for a friendly date to have ramen tomorrow for lunch. Coming out with this idea, expecting her to reject it, but to my astonishment, she agreed. With all these positive factors in my life, I really should enjoy and live every minute of it.
Sitting here sweating my bum off, thinking about life. Usually I struggle to produce any type of writing, but this time was different. A power that controlled me to write this story. This allows me to think back and relive what I have done for the last 17 years, the positive experiences that I have lived and the people who helped me when I was suffering. It was my family, friends and God that helped me. I am extremely thankful for what has happened to me and for what I have.
Angus Yeung 10/3/13 12:01am Sunday
